Faith, Part 2

****This is my second entry in an unplanned series on faith. If you want to read the first entry, have at it***

I feel like I am on a journey, a journey discovering what faith means to me and a journey of having that small seed of faith inside me grow. Being raised in a Christian home, I took advantage of faith. It was something that was always there. But now, as an adult, I am having to discover what faith really means and how it applies to my life.

I have struggled for a while now with exactly what faith means. It is kind of an elusive thing to me. Kind of like a feeling. How do I act out a feeling? Well, when I came across something referring to faith as trust, a light clicked on for me. That just made sense. Having trust in God I could totally understand. Now learning to trust God for everything is the journey I am on.

I am an independent person. I am the person that says God gave us brains to figure out things on our own. I am the person that prays if it is your will. I am done with that...well trying to be.

Reading the bible, Jesus says over and over, your faith has made you well. I want that faith. I want the faith that makes me well, the faith that moves mountains. I know I can get it. My heart wants it. It is just figuring out how to get my head there. Figuring out how to trust in God and rely on him for everything. That is pretty big when you think about it.

I have been following this blog about a pastor's daughter in Southern California with cancer. After being declared cancer free in May, they found a tumor in her a week ago. An you know what scripture the dad puts on his blog? Job 1:20-22

Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head, and he fell to the ground and worshiped. He said, ”Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked I shall return there. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away. Blessed be the name of the LORD.” Through all this Job did not sin nor did he blame God.

That is the kind of faith I want. The kind of faith that puts my (and my family's) life in his hands. The kind of faith that completely knows that God is in charge. The kind of faith that is unwavering. The kind of faith that moves mountains. I know it can happen.

It all begins with trust...

Summer Fashion Week - Sunday

What is about to become extremely clear to all of you is that I live in a much different weather climate than most of you. Our average summer high over here in Scotland is 64 degrees. And it is more like us having a bunch of rainy days with a high in the 50's, then a couple sunny days that may hit 70...if we are lucky. Thus, dressing for the summer can be different, which is evident given that I am wearing a sweater today!

Sweater: Hollister
Tanktop: Michael Stars
Jeans: Seven
Shoes: Converse
Jewelry: Don't know/remember with either the necklace or bracelet

It was great playing along with all of you this week. Thanks for all the wonderful comments. I am sure there are some of you that I will now be blog stalking following your blog/life musings for my personal enjoyment.

Summer Fashion Week - Saturday

Happy Saturday to you all!!! Anyone up to anything fun this weekend? We are having some friends over for a BBQ...hopefully the rain will hold off long enough for us to enjoy some of the BBQ outside!

Dress: Superdry

(another Scottish brand...that oddly enough masks itself as something Japanese)
Leggings: Gap
Shoes: Urban Outfitters

I feel like I need to make a couple disclaimers about my outfit today. First, it is Saturday, thus the husband was home to take my picture. And for some reason, I decided I needed to get a little active during the photo shoot! But about the clothes, sorry about the bra straps hanging out. I just didn't feel up to sporting a strapless bra ALL DAY LONG! I guess fashion has to suffer. And secondly, about the smack-you-in-the-face clevage in every picture, I am still breastfeeding my little man. I can't help the clevage!

8 Months

Weight: 17lbs, 11oz

Accomplishments:
2 cut teeth (both on the bottom)
Crawling
Sleeping on his stomach
Extremely observant...finds the smallest things on the floor!
Taking steps, with someone holding him up

Connor has had a lot going on in the past month and most of it seemed to happen within a week of each other. In the past week, Connor has started to crawl and has had two teeth pop thru on the bottom. The whole teething thing made him into one unhappy camper, and a huge Mama's boy!

Connor has also now mastered the art of sleeping on his stomach. And, no matter where you put him in his crib, he always crawls to the same end, pulls down the bumper and uses it as a pillow. It is really cute! With the whole teething saga, we have had some pretty rough nights, but he seems to be doing better now. Last night he slept 13 hours! If only every night were that easy!

One of my favorite things about Connor are his facial expressions. Seriously, the kid is a hoot! And when he smiles, it melts my heart. I love that kid!

Summer Fashion Week - Friday

Top: Topshop
Tanktop: Target
Jeans: Topshop
Shoes: Converse high tops

These photos don't do this top justice. It is long, flowy and see through. I really like how it fits me. It is one of those tops that I always feel good wearing...if only my whole wardrobe were like this! I normally wear this shirt with the necklace that I wore on Monday, but I couldn't find it anywhere. I hope I didn't loose it somewhere outside of my house. I love that necklace!

Oh, and right after I took these pictures, I put my contacts in. It is pouring down rain outside and given that I have to walk everywhere I go, I didn't want to hassle with my glasses getting all fogged up in the rain...like you care!

Summer Fashion Week - Thursday

Today I have barely been able to do anything without a certain little man on my hip. As soon as I even begin to set him down, the waterworks begin. And all I can think about is that once these teeth are in, there will be more to come just around the corner!


While he was napping, I ran outside and snapped a couple pictures of what I was wearing. None of them turned out particularly well, but no time for another photo sesh. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Jacket: Roxy

Shirt: ?
Jeans: Citizens
Shoes: Converse high tops

Yesterday someone gave me some teeth candy and they are totally freaking me out. Honestly, I feel gross even thinking about eating them. So, I thought I would share them with you...its kind of like having someone smell something that you think smells gross!

Summer Fashion Week - Wednesday

Today I am thinking Summer Fashion Week needs to be renamed Fall Fashion Week. A storm blew in last night and it is chilly, windy and rainy. And leaves are falling off the trees and blowing around...it's definitely fall. And being that it is fall, I picked out my best fall outfit to tackle a day of taking care of my baby cutting teeth (it appears 4 are coming in right now).

Necklace: Don't know

Shirt: Old Navy
Belt: One of those things so old it feels like your leg...it has just always been there for you!
Jeans: Topshop
Shoes: Good 'ole Rainbows

Not that you care, but my shirt actually matches the color of some of the flowers in our garden. I love the color. Maybe that is why I picked out both the shirt and the flowers!